I can’t believe how much your precious baby looks like the girl I have now. I, too, know what you are going through. I lost my first baby nearly 3 years ago. She was 15 years old and truly my soulmate. She was healthy up until the day she passed from a sudden illness. I still think about her every day. For a long time after she was gone I would hear her collar tags rattle like she was moving around. I have never stopped thinking about her. I will miss her until the day we are reunited. I waited two years before I felt I was ready to help a shelter dog. When I went to the shelter my new dog picked me so I knew she was the one I needed to help. She will never replace my first baby, but she has helped me tremendously in my healing process. So I hope you will let another dog into your heart. By doing so you can save a precious life.